Logic and Emotion —Hand in Hand Support
A full night’s sleep and I wake up to a bee in a cell. I get that I am nurturing bees. Gaia’s green support system depends on them. Where do larvae live? Where is honey stored? I will get educated. I’ve had opportunities to learn different things from people in my lifetime (including beekeeping) but wasn’t interested in hanging out with those people. Am I a snob? No, I’m more of a loner. I prefer orienting around my inner, world. Bees are now included. 🐝🐝🐝
I’m taking a rest from 3am meditation. I’m thinking I could do that dance forever. However, I have rhythms. I live in 3-D as well and this body needs balance. I was thinking that my mind and body need a rest yet my heart is always beating and pumping. I was at this peak and then resting place before with 3 am meditation. Do I rest because of fear? An outsider might think that. I rest because my body tells me it needs a rest.
My feelings were hurt yesterday and I spoke up about it. I wasn’t heard. I’ve been watering and nurturing the plants on the main floor of my apartment building for years. A new manager came in and asked for volunteers to water plants. No one told her that I’d been caretaking them. The self-righteous Christian woman who knows this well never spoke up. And when I told the manager she still excluded me from that process of change. Unseen. Unheard. The hurt felt juvenile to my logical mind. Truth is I’m invisible here because I choose to be. I keep to myself. Truth is detachment from my beloved plants is okay. This incident reminds me of bees being invisible and unappreciated. As this disconnect occurs my neighbor and I are going drumming tomorrow night. He’s not one of the Christians. Why such upset? “It’s in the stars.”
My nanny family is supporting my noon hour of listening to JD Live. They offered their computer and suggested the patio. I appreciate that support.
It’s so odd that I’m a Cosmic Mystic of Truth on one hand and an Earthy Emotional Human on the other. And yet—it’s the Truth telling that unifies both sides. Truth telling via Wings of Transparency!
What is another word for shape shifting?
—transmogrification. noun. The process or result of changing from one appearance, state, or phase to another: change, changeover, conversion, metamorphosis, mutation, shift, transfiguration, transformation, translation, transmutation, transubstantiation.