Dragon Eye


I left my home town of Tacoma twice to find myself and a spiritual community and I did find deeper parts of myself and many spiritual communities.

Many months ago I sensed an inner shift and that I wanted to be back home with family. I mentioned this to a daughter and let it unfold. My plan to move was June but due to unexpected circumstances I am moving sooner than expected. This is significant in that karma with one individual ends as I cut the cords. It is Love that moves me home. Love that is within and not somewhere else to be sought after. It feels like a complete circle and I know what that means—-a new circle and cycle begins with more lessons about Love, Truth and Life.

What do stress tests say about making big changes such as moving and finding a new job all at the same time? They stress the stress. Me? My backbone is strong, my nerves like steel and my heart red hot. So here I go!

Sacred Sexuality

I wrote the following comment in response to David Wilcock’s video What Is Human Beings Means?

It’s 4:25 am and I am feeling internal pressure to say something I have never said in public:

Words matter in the same way food matters. Words create an external environment in the same way food creates an internal environment and both are alchemical—transmuting lead to gold or lead to more lead.

positive.negativeI never allowed my children to say “fuck” in my presence. When possible I continue to request this from others. Why? Why do I feel so strongly about this? Because the word represents a sacred act of union between male and female. Many people on earth throw the word around in the same way they throw their bodies around without any consciousness of the alchemy they are creating for themselves, others and the planet.

People tell me that it’s just a slang word and I need to “get over it”. The problem is I experienced union between my Sacred Feminine (intuition) and Sacred Masculine (logic) years ago when I started my spiritual journey. Their intimately honest relationship (logic backing up emotion/emotion backing up logic) activated my wing chakra and introduced me to Dragon.

There is nothing more intimate or sacred than this internal fire of sexual union. So, I am sensitive to and conscious of this word and now (since I’ve heard David talk about certain food as “weaponry”) I see that profanity is used in the same way: to keep our vibration low and to keep our planet cloaked in dark toxicity.

I challenge anyone to open up mind (male) and heart (female) and let new words of light pour through. Let this sacred sexuality play out from within and let this magical way of being in the world but not of it make a positive/healthy difference.

David, thanks for your apology after speaking the word. You are conscious whereas most are not. My Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine are grateful for this safe place, this platform, to speak out—to be sexually active.

My Dragon is happy about this, S/He is flying high!

Photon DNA = Sacred Marriage

I am now listening to Corey Goode and David Wilcock via YouTube and appreciate hearing them talk about Angels, Blue Avians and the value of “going within.”

In David Wilcock’s The DNA Changing I hear that “the photon carries the code for life” via the DNA molecule.

This affirms the role of the master pineal gland and it’s reception and distribution of Light through the chakra system, endocrine system, etc. The master gland has a mistress, the pituitary gland and these two create the “sacred marriage” that I describe in my book S/He Dragon ~ How I Found My Wings.

What if we taught our children about their inner relationship? Would they better see sutratmahow sacred they are?

Reptilian Brain Stem

spinal cord

We are Serpent. Just look at our core!!

The back of my neck has played a significant role in my spiritual journey. I am now connecting the dots and end up at the reptilian brain stem that connects the brain and the spinal column.

Neck snap:
At age thirty I experienced a “snap” at the back of neck that left me paralyzed for three days. This sudden Kundalini awakening changed my brain body as I was jolted out of Beta brain wave of ordinary reality.

Dream of snake wrapped around my neck:
I am walking with a man who is taller than I am. We see a snake. It wants to get close to me and I freak out—a physical snake is different from a mystical one. It wraps around my neck and I consciously work to stay calm. I focus and attune to the snake. I feel its presence around my neck moving left to right, then hear it make a sharp sound at, and then in, my right ear. The man unwraps the snake from my neck very carefully because it’s tangled in my hair. He lifts the snake high. I think he’s going to throw it but he gently places it on the ground. The man then strokes my head and neck.

Neck and cobra:
I had a massage recently. The masseuse started at the back of my neck with the axis and atlas vertebrae. Instantly a snake’s face appeared with its coiled body beneath. I asked what it was doing. It started to dance. So we danced! Yes, a happy dance! Then I saw many coiled snakes spread out across dark space.

The reptilian brain stem is a gateway for the pineal and pituitary glands and chakras.



I left my home town, Tacoma, twice. The last time, 18 years ago, I landed in Woodinville to find myself and a spiritual community. In those 18 years I experienced many community groups, teachers, classes, retreats, books, classes, events, people. A few months ago I felt something coming to an end. Something had stopped. (I blogged about it under the title Pause on December 30.)

It is clear now what this is about. June is the month when a nanny job ends and the house I share is being sold. So, I am returning to my home town! I have sensed this move for months and talked to a daughter about it to test the waters. How would they feel about their “different” mother/grandmother being around more often?

I think about the 18 years here in Woodinville. I like it here and actually feel loved by this city. Isn’t that an odd thing to say? I guess it’s simply a reflection of my feelings about being here—-feelings that go both ways. I will miss all the trees that I’ve come to know. The development, however, is heartbreaking. We have to fight to keep our agriculture valley, we have to fight to keep these trees. So, in my last few months here I continue to do weekly drum meditation in its woods, I continue to love the children I take care of. Returning home is also an act of love. It’s as if more pieces of myself have come together, integrating who I am. And in this new sense of wholeness I get to return home. A complete circle.

The mental mind needs discipline. No, you don’t have to know right now where your new nanny job will be or your new living space. Yes, you can take those steps in a couple of months. In the meantime stay in the moment and learn more about Love—-spiritual Love.

Which reminds me! Since my volcanic eruption with my housemate I am noticing a shift at my core and in my landscape. She is no longer pushing my buttons, getting on my nerves. Why? Because a word keeps popping up from my sub-conscious. That word is “irrelevant.” Odd, how a volcanic eruption can create space for newness. My brain-body is so much like the collective earth-body. We are so Goddess!!

My life-long journey has been about loving myself, others, my community, planet and, with my recent ufology activity, my galaxy and universe. Whew!! That’s quite a ride. Maybe I’ll go home to rest and just be myself with nothing more to accomplish or do spiritually. Now, perhaps my work is simply to Be. That sounds like a fun vacation—-it feels like flying—-a kite flying in wind currents safe, protected, loved.

Cobra Activation

I had a massage yesterday on Martin Luther King Day. The masseuse started at the back of my neck with the axis and atlas vertebrae. Instantly a snake’s face appeared with its coiled body beneath. I remembered a similar image from a Trance session I did last year with Mary Kennedy (shown). I questioned the snake as to what it was doing. It started to dance. So we danced! Yes, a happy dance! Then I saw many coiled snakes spread out across dark space.

My snake represents the Dragon Body which channels Kundalini energy from subtle Heaven to gross Earth and Earth to Heaven. It represents the alchemical process of transmuting lead to gold or the dark ego body to the angelic body…as in the snake shedding its skin.

Snake appeared on the day of the RETURN OF LIGHT ACTIVATION 01-20-2019 / 01-21-2019. “This meditation helps the Light forces to ground the energy of Light on the surface of the planet to resolve the deadlock between the Light and the dark forces, finally setting humanity free.” Snake affirms this activation on Earth !!



volcanic eruption

Enlightenment is a process of knowing one’s Shadow and Light.

I’ve been challenged the past few months by my housemate (a temporary situation). She is a perfectionist and I experience that as controlling. We collide when I am not perfect—-when I forget something or do something abnormal like leaving a door open or forgetting to turn off a light. When she goes into offense I go into defense with red hot anger.

Last night as I was contemplating the situation and asking for higher guidance I heard “Krishnamurti.” I asked, “Don’t you mean Yogananda.” “No, Krishnamurti,” was the reply. So I looked him up on dear Google and saw that this philosopher speaks of self love, love of others and relationships. This morning I woke up to revelations about my anger. Thank you!

Why the reservoir of hot lava in my subconscious? Because I have been different all my life and as a result laughed at and ridiculed. This hurts because I want to fit in and be loved. This has also created deep wounds. So, how do I respond to people when I don’t fit their mold? Yes, I could read a book on “how to” or listen to an expert but as usual I prefer to listen within and with that I receive internal teachers and teachings.

With this new awareness about inner wounds and thus grief (my housemate has her own reservoir of wounds and grief) I will continue to be myself—-both Shadow and Light. In that I let others do the same. Will my hot lava settle down now that I know myself better? Will I have new ways to communicate? Will I love myself more and care less about what others think?

There are many ways to respond to others emotionally. One can suppress feelings and watch them erupt at a later time or express them in the moment and get to know oneself.

I now see how Light balances and smooths out shadows. And this is why enlightenment is a process and not a destination. Enlightenment is loving, forgiving—-an evolving spiral.

Reflective Light

I like to respond to others on Facebook via reflective light. I wrote this today and realize it has much to do with my new cycle. I feel less in that “pause” darkness now.

“I am reflecting Light when I share what others around me are contributing. It’s like our collective Light is bouncing off one another as in a star system as well as a crystal.”

BTW…I just “got” that intuitive hit that reflective light and collective light is all about Love.

A Pause

I am in a pause and not sure what it means. I feel emptied of ambition and wonder if it has to do with turning 70 in November. I have written and spoken about my spiritual process for 45 years and I think I am done. It’s as if there is nothing more to say. How odd is that? For me, very odd! I wonder if this new process and cycle has to do more with others than with myself. It does look like I continue to write my ongoing story of S/He Dragon. What is this creature up to now?

Drum Meditation

Drum meditation is not passive. It is an activity that includes giving and receiving. “Feedback loops” come to mind. How do words come in like that–spontaneously–without the mental mind figuring it out but rather simply being a receiver? Seems to me it’s a mind that is both passive in receptivity (feminine) and active with information (masculine). Is this not “intelligence?” If so our education system needs a serious overhaul. Learning from the inside out rather than outside in. How many are interested in going within to learn this new language: The Language of the Sacred Feminine and Masculine, The Language of S/He?

Sunday morning, I stood in a new location to drum. This branch with decaying leaves of Autumn also held birthing buds of Spring. What a story of Oneness this told! Just like a spiral and the staircase (that came through during this meditation) energy moves in two directions: inward and outward, contracting and expanding as one flowing motion. I invite you to step into this flowing motion with drumming, rattling, chanting, praying, etc. It will add sparks of enchantment to your ordinary life.