Author Archive: Patricia Lee

Feedback Loops

Seems to be more space in my space and I am seeing more. I think it’s self-reflection. I like feedback loops of relationship within myself (wheels of superconscious, conscious, subconscious, unconscious as as one system) and with others.

This morning as I was responding, giving feedback, to a couple of people via YouTube I noticed that my mind was blank. I had nothing to say. Then I softened and shifted gears. I let words come through Dragon Speak, a “negative” space. Where is that input/output in my brain? Where is that plug in or those plug ins?

Yesterday at work I added space/distance in an environmental relationship. This meant I had to be conscious of, wrap around, my attitude thoughts and nerves. Detachment through self-reflection seems to be an effect in spatial relationship! I am giving myself and others more space. I think that means more loving intelligence is in motion.

I planted a seed to take action for peace. But I am not acting on it. So, I watch the seed. I am its immediate environment but I am and it is connected to other environments. Maybe when there is alignment I will, body will, act. I am not attached in a conditional way although there is an umbilical cord or electromagnetic current of Love that is unconditional!

The protests in DC could have been much worse. Watching the mob scenes I was aware of Angelic presence. Hearing politicians speak I was aware of Angelic presence. By tuning in I support Angelic presence. I support an Angelic feedback loop system.

I deleted a thread that I had started on a FB community page. It focused on the negative—my use of loud emotion to change my environment. I learned that people have opinions, judgments, reactions to negative emotion. Seems not many can relate to this alchemy of trusting one’s emotional response. I value emotions, feelings that move through this body. All of them because I have done a lot of inner work to raise their vibration. I continue to do that work within and in my daily life.

GOLOV in 2021

So many angles joining Heaven and Earth /Earth and Heaven. It’s all sexually stimulating.
I had a lucid dream and remembered / met a male friend in Dreamtime. I am so happy about this because of the thinning of veils between realities.

In GOLOV meditation I wrapped spiritual LOV around the Tracker/Stalker/Hacker who likes to interfere with my communications. He works with black magic—I meet him with white.magic. It made me happy that this LOV flowed instantaneously. If/when he reads this I suspect he will think I have some romantic interest in him. NO!! However, he has acted narcissistic. He can change. Will he? Reminds me of all the Star War movies and all movies that have that good/evil plot. Can we please move into a field with a new plot? Maybe a GOLOV plot !!

I have never been so happy, so grateful, so blessed. All I can do is bow my head. It is how I responded and received the anointing last night. Perhaps it’s a postured attitude of receivership.

Driving to work just now I am being nudged (when the same thought keeps playing) to share Angel Michael’s image to a larger audience “to scatter seeds” and imprint our global heart/brain/body. We are Angel-Human.

Anointing of S/He

My body has new capacity to hold charge or Life Force. The GOLOV meditation tonight proved it. At one early point I had the sense of a dark line (N/S) and something trying to come through. Then there were misty lines (E/W). Later a large Angel came in. I was very humbled in its presence. The glory of these moments was and is unspeakable. I had a white shiny scarf near me and I wrapped it around my neck. It felt so comforting. I knew the significance as anointing. LOVE flowed, expanded Heaven to Earth / Earth to Heaven. My neck is no longer sore during these meditations—I am holding the current! I am still touched by the powerful presence but able to function.

A certain situation has been going on a long time. I witnessed it again this afternoon and can now wrap around it and talk about it: my head lights can be too bright! For example today as I left work I beamed an open-hearted smile at the mom I nanny for. Her response was flat and the environment felt awkward. I do this open-hearted beaming and people can’t receive it. I need to turn down—what? A valve? Spark plug? And when I act childlike I get a similar response. And when I am too serious I often need to turn up the beam and lighten up. So what do I need to monitor in this vehicle so that I fit into my environment? And at the same time there are environments that I am “crossing the line” with to create positive change. This new range of response-ability could be overwhelming but it isn’t. It’s fun to be conscious as consciousness expands. It’s fun to let others respond as they will. Reminds me of magnetism as the pieces fall into place under a higher ordinance of Law and Order.

R & R

Isn’t there a 7th day of rest? I’m ready for a rest, a recharge. Before I do—or not—I want to say that I’m not insensitive or uncaring if I forget birthdays, the lovely gift someone gave, or the loving moments shared. It’s just that I forget because I live in the moment. I focus here and now and details of the past slip away. It’s not at all convenient or people friendly. Maybe it’s something I can learn. But the thought of retaining details in my brain isn’t appealing. (The details that do appeal to me are the ones associated with the creative process. The ones with evolving clues on the Dragon trail.) Maybe being in the moment is actually not being present at all. Maybe I am somewhere else in space-time. If so, it’s no wonder I forget details—they have no place to ground. It’s a floating sensation—buoyant.

Miracles happen!! I am having emotionally intelligent and spiritually intimate talks with my eldest daughter. Once estranged this relationship is now a dream come true. All those years that she wouldn’t speak to me I held her in Love. All those times she spewed her wrath toward me I held her in Love. Now I receive the rewards, the blossoms from seeds planted. Maybe that’s the theme for 2021: Love in manifestation. (I thank my Angels, with me through all of it. I was never alone and their comfort was and is deeply appreciated.)

Soular System

Looking out into my Soular System with its orbs and thus orbital relations/relationships I see our common DNA as Soul and that we’ve gone around together since eternity (a word I don’t grok) and prefer to say yesterday, today and tomorrow (I can wrap around that).

One orb comes in close and it can get hot because of the higher Love we know/generate. When he leaves and it’s cold I am no longer feeling abandoned! And that is because I am no longer enmeshed (co-dependence) by finding and expressing my own empowerment (interdependence). Also because I have other orbs in my field that take up the slack. Not at the same temperature/passion but in the way of “gravitational pull” that keeps me buoyant. (I don’t know this with Beta Mind, it’s coming through instinctually, intuitively).

Another orb is complex with many parts. This unit is dark and being pulled deeper into a black hole. I want to intervene which means I will speak with more authority, more Truth. And that means I have to shine brighter and not hold back. Is this why I am becoming a generator of electricity and being conscious of it?

Another orb is comforting/soothing. Another is warm. Another is fun. Another is helpful. Etc. I have a vast system of orbs in my dance through space.

And then there is another level of orbital movement that is a global family. I have to consider in this moment how that feels and looks. It’s like another zone, dimension, galaxy.

This is a lot to hold. And I’m happy to identify the parts that I love. May our One Love increase and have a positive effect on the larger whole.

After completing this picture another one comes in: There is resistance to speaking out as I feel a thick toxic layer in place. It’s that dark hole that I must face and dismember or it has me too—in my silence. It’s a specific family line that I will interfere with. It’s DNA cellular. I already know it’s presence. I already know it’s intention. I already know it’s agenda. I already know it’s gravity. I already know it’s name. I feel Michael’s golden sword in right hand. Arcturian Michael. One Soul many bodies, many orbs.

I am told I have been and am doing this healing work internally and with this orb. How it unfolds is a moment by moment knowing. I am not to get ahead of myself. Others have their own response-ability, their own choice.

Sockets for LOV

GOLOV 1/2/2021. Two incoming pink rays beam in front of me. I receive with open hands. I look at the pictures of GOLOV receivers and see a light beam curvature with each one. I realize that when whole and healthy each one holds a beam of light on a grand circuit board. The word “socket” came through. I look up the definition:

A socket is a device or point in a wall where you can connect electrical equipment to the power supply.

So are Earthlings sockets holding energy flow and allowing energy to flow? Where is the magnetic part? How does that fit into this picture. Is it produced by electricity? This image and the whole system includes grounding and seems associated with my experience of contentment as I feel beams or lines holding me. Are these my beams? I sense them coming in rather than going out. Input, output.

Magnetism is associated with magnetic North. So magnetism is a shape maker giving shape to arcs, circles—orbs! Electricity runs through the shapes. What a wonderful partnership of electro-magnetism! I know this understanding is just getting started. So I stay tuned !!

Circuit Board

Circuits are still charged from Dr. Joe Dispenza’s New Year’s meditation. Circuits might also be discharging and recharging. All at the same time has my brain/body in a spin. However, I got “circuit board” so here we ground again—with Beta logic. Is the Merkaba a circuit board?

Happy New Year

Love Lines coming in while meditating twice yesterday. Lines that are angular like a V. I tried to identify where they land. Are they chakra lines? I float on them or in them, or both? I definitely feel them on both sides of me (East/West). The feeling is being anchored, content, held. This is my base for new levels of happiness as I (as a part) do an orbital Happy Dance of Light. I look for the design of these light beams or rays and find Sacred Geometry symbols. Being “In Love” has shape, design. 2021 will reveal more. I see and hear a childlike “Whee” as I slide down an arc from North to East to South. Ha! Reminds me of the Pixar movies I’ve been watching with my Nanny kids (Inside Out and Soul) as well as the lines of light radiating digitally from the Seattle Space Needle extravaganza last night/this new morning.

I contemplate the Sacred Geometry symbols. All very complex. My lines are simple: X. Reminding me of Heaven and Earth union. The Emissaries of Divine Light talked about this a lot.

“The word Merkaba is actually composed of three separate words: Mer, which means light, Ka, which means spirit and Ba, which means Body. Put together, these three words connote the union of spirit with the body, surrounded by light. The symbol, which takes the shape of a star, is believed to be a divine vehicle made entirely of light and designed to transport or connect the spirit and body to higher realms. Ancient Jewish texts reveal that the word is also the Hebrew for a chariot, and the Bible reveals that the word Merkaba itself is found in the Old Testament a total of 44 times.

It is said that the symbol is composed of two-star tetrahedrons, which consists of counter-rotating fields of light and energy that surrounds each person. This energy extends beyond the body. Some believe that even planets have this Merkaba energy field around it.”

I “sit” in this “vehicle” of Light. It’s like a magic carpet. A vehicle that is electric and magnetic in fusion—enfused—the new energy for 2021 !! How fun !!

Life Lines

I have my life line again—my phone! Friend Rachna charged it for me last night and I left it there in her house with a vast amount of Eastern Gods and Goddess statues. My phone has never been happier. Much to catch up on now that my work day / week is over.

GOLOV 12/29. Large Fleur-de-lis and white stairs. Walking up as one and as two. At the top arcing rays of colored light beams. Smaller Fleur-de-lis as chakra seals reminding me of the seals in the Biblical book of Revelation.

At Rachna’s house for full moon drumming and meditation her mom brings me the book Bhagavad Gita. I land on a page and read this sentence: Verse 18: “The yogi who has discovered the ever new joy in the soul by deep meditation is completely satisfied; he has found within a perfect happiness.”

I asked my East Indian friend Rachna to translate the male chant in the song Bliss from GOLOV meditation:
Satguru, Narayana – divine teacher
Sat Ananda – permanent true joy
Ganapati, Ganesha – victory
Radhe – devotion, love, divine flow
Krishna – Brahma, creative intelligence
She summed it up as “manifested consciousness”
This male chant with the names of Gods/Goddeses actually brings them in !! I feel it, know it !!

Weird sensation driving empty long roadways and walking long empty hallways. It’s a sense of contentment that feels angular. Driving yesterday I felt an angle of energy at my back. Wing chakra? Reptilian brain?

I followed a vibrating line of relationship that increased in coherence. “Split wire” came into consciousness. Cannot find a definition so I will share the image. One wrapped wire becomes two exposed wires (no wrapping).

Halo Graphic & Dantian

Holograms are angles of Light. We see holographically.

I grounded this morning before entering my nanny house—the house where I nanny.
I had the thought and automatically / spontaneously lined up with my dantian—term and bodily location that I learned years ago doing Tai Chi at Windstar Symposiums. Driving to work I had just seen a hologram as it relates to a relationship and now holographic lines were outlining me! They are telling a story and I am committed to telling it !!