This day of solitude proved to be a day of sleep with little outgoing energy. To sleep, get up to accomplish something, then sleep some more. My brain-body soaked it up and continues to feel “off.”
In the midst and mist of this Day of Solitude I detected a new feeling and with it new awareness. It had to do with my need for approval from others so I feel good about myself. For the first time I thought of myself as an empath and taking on others’ emotions when in truth I have filters and boundaries.
Do I really need to dig into past emotional patterns? I wasn’t digging. These patterns are coming up on their own for viewing. I’ve never considered myself an empath. I’ll look at that again. This healing process is necessary. It’s digging in and digging out off-key musical notes and chords and replacing them with (fun when an image communicates) harps!
In one of my awake phases today I was writing notes about brain parts and realized I have a book with answers to my questions: Becoming Supernatural. What a shift in my reality to be in my left brain seeking answers to my questions from a book! My body must be adjusting to a shock wave!
Hours later: News flash! What a concept! Self-acceptance! Instead of ongoing judgment and self-criticism. Can I fit inside this? Or do I fit outside? My new brain isn’t on straight yet.