Monthly Archive: October 2021

Motherly Instinct

Woke up in gratitude. Recently I noticed an increase in negative self-talk so my focus is gratitude.

There are signs in my life of—Grounding!! It’s been many years since my left brain wiring was fried in a Kundalini snap at the back of my neck—many years that I’ve floated through life disconnected. Lately I’m naturally grounding by writing “to dos” on paper, creating weekly meal plans, and asking for contact information from those in my Drum Circle (I want to be connected!). I had avoided these details as I was out in space and couldn’t connect. Now I’m wanting to bring focus in to matter. Morning meditation this morning helped me ground in a N/S line while pulling in an E/W line. This moment does feel that logic is N/S and intuition E/W. Thanks This moment is constant change. However, to ground I get to focus on consistency, stability, order which includes details—parts of one grand and glorious whole.

What’s the difference between a group of people that is inclusive and one that is exclusive? One where you are ignored if you’re not centered around and focused on the person at the center. I watch from a distance because I am not a match. And then there is another experience where I am drawn to the energetic woman at the center of a group. A match! But I’m not sure I have room for another group. My life is full; my plate is full. And that includes time/space for solitude. My life is designed on Feng Shui with breathing room in between the parts. I see that breathing room as Spirit.

I’m so happy!! All my family is getting together for a birthday celebration with pizza! Yumm! We’d been scattered and disconnected. I prefer everyone feeling connected—in Spirit! A motherly instinct.

Elf Effects

Last night during GOLOV meditation I had a lesson about boundaries or edges. I’m still unraveling it but do know it has to do with that Elf whose felt jacket I touched during this meditation. He felt physical! Which reality do I live in? Many !! I ended up with a head ache which was outside in. So, I’m going to look for and ask for wings from those I meet in meditation. Only the highest for this heart-brain-body. Wings of Light are my edge !!

Syncopation

Such a brilliant talk from a mind that is multi-faceted like a crystal. The music made it a morning meditation and it stuck, it resonated! I stayed with it—entranced. The music anchored a part of my brain while the logic of words moved around me. Effective!

“Syncopation” — like a dance of parts. I’m not finding a good definition for this word so maybe a different one is needed though I did see a metronome during meditation and that intuitive intelligence always gets my attention.

metronome is “a device used by musicians that marks time at a selected rate by giving a regular tick”

Ah-Ha !

I agree that meditation can help me with the “edges” I experience with certain people. Right now I want to tell a new friend that when she is hyper energetically it’s as if she’s talking at me rather than with me and it’s very draining. I don’t want to be around her. I’m not sure how to approach this with her so I’m asking a friend who is very logical to help me process this. I will continue to work with my relationship with meditation. What are those edges?

Ah-Ha! Reminds me of witches living in deep woods, monks on mountaintops, fairies behind Earth veil, ETs behind force fields, Angels behind Light frequency. So many edges.

Another Ah-Ha! I, too, can be too energized for people around me. So many mirrors reflecting Light and Matter that Angel-Humans radiate. Another learning curve!

Meditation Dance

I could not find a meditation that resonated this morning. So I conclude that today music is my meditation and that words are distracting. This body wants to be in bliss and not have to think by processing words. Seems I don’t want to be in that part of my brain. Is my reptilian brain home base? (I saw a picture this morning of angels’ association with chakras and that Michael was located at heart and throat. That fits my experiences of a kundalini snap at the back of neck and angel wings activating.) It’s always nice to have validation AFTER the experience.

Sam Garrett and his partner emit beautiful music.

Meditation’s breathing from South to North makes my head bob and sway. I feel like a floating orb. Also reminds me of the Aurora Borealis. It’s enchanting! If I concentrate on my East / West lines by visualizing or putting my hands up as if holding space the movements settle. I suspect this has to do with my energy field, cerebral spinal fluid and physical body relationship. It’s this energy/matter relationship that loves music. Movement is their union !!

How do I dance in this 3D realm? Alone is easy. I can bliss out. But here I have people to relate to. I’m feeling blocks with a couple of people that I will smooth out because they’re family. It’s actually more about me changing the way I move and speak with them. Recently two women friends annoyed me with aggressive beta questions and demands of my time. It made me realize how much time I spend outside of beta with my nanny kids, GOLOV and alone time. When I enter fields of people who are in beta I have to be ready for that energy. My discomfort (the annoyance) was a wake up call.

I’m happy to meet new friends who are on my wavelength. Thank you Spirit !!

Sonar Wave

10/2. GOLOV Meditation

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“Holding a timeline”

It’s a wave or series of waves, not a line. A sonar wave.

https://oceanservice.noaa.gov/welcome.html

Sonar, short for Sound Navigation and Ranging, is helpful for exploring and mapping the ocean because sound waves travel farther in the water than do radar and light waves. NOAA scientists primarily use sonar to develop nautical charts, locate underwater hazards to navigation, search for and map objects on the seafloor such as shipwrecks, and map the seafloor itself. There are two types of sonar—active and passive.

Velcro Love ❤️🔹💜

For years I’ve focused on being independent and disentangled as it relates to relationship with a man. And now I want to reverse that? Why? Because now it’s relationship with Light rather than matter. This complete turn-around feels like Velcro with adhering edges. As usual I’m going with the flow of temperature—seasonal weather patterns. Oh, I’m getting these are no longer “my” weather patterns but include another environment. Sounds enmeshed (Velcro again). I let go of old experiences and concepts about relationship. Now, it’s Matter and Light — Matter En-Lightened. Something to celebrate on Earth ❣️❣️

Velcro. / (ˈvɛlkrəʊ) / noun. trademark a fastening consisting of two strips of nylon fabric, one having tiny hooked threads and the other a coarse surface, that form a strong bond when pressed together.

Star Dust

GOLOV notes:

Love is an open channel with so many and so much to love.

Head inflating like a balloon. Must be helium in cerebral spinal fluid.

Light as star dust. I’ve been in its path since birth—it continues to shape me. Nature inhales and exhales star dust—a Love affair.

Fall On Me song pops in.

Ley Lines hold star dust.

Hands can hold the edges of energy fields, auras and relationship. Hands can calm wobbly edges.

Matter meeting energy creates an edge or line. Personal aura, relationship aura, collective aura have edges or lines.

On mountain top with beloved friend both of us wearing feathered headdresses. Two males. Seeing as One. Reminds me of a powerful John Denver song, The Wings That Fly Us Home. Music is so fluid and liquid—does it have edges?