My “pause” is a depression on a chart. Emotionally it feels cloudy with choppy waters and high winds. No land is in sight. The sun is obscured. What’s at the root of this dark pause? It’s my experience that men want sex and women want relationship. It’s the difference between testosterone and estrogen. I know the power of testosterone’s sexual drive moving through this body. Out of balance it reflected inner emotional imbalance. This darkness caused collapse and I chose a turn-around to metaphysics, meditation where I was greeted by Angel Michael. This pause holds a “trust” issue within myself and with men.
I’m told not to dwell in the past. That is not how healing works for me. I dwell here until I can rise up from this snag. I dwell here until Truth shines through. Honesty is the thread that weaves unconscious, subconscious and conscious awareness together through dark and light weather patterns. I choose honesty through throat chakra connected to wing and heart chakra. I ask myself, “Are you being stubborn?” The answer is that this pause is more than emotional. There’s a different substance present. Something I need to permeate. So I sit with it. So it sits with me. Eye to eye and we need more time to process.