Monthly Archive: June 2021

6/19 GOLOV. Immediately— feet are on a skateboard, balanced and moving on the ground! I see the symbol of eternity (a horizontal 8) and recognize it as the skateboard. This foundation is happy. A man’s face appears (not stalker). He is not allowed in my meditations so I put up a black screen. I feel like a chameleon changing colors as I go in and out of brainwave states of consciousness. Mirroring Light. Fractals. I heard on Ancient Aliens that the Holographic Universe holds past, present and future NOW!! Next I am at the sandy beach waving a colorful scarf in the wind. Love is “intact” — not seeping or leaking. Contained. Feel different signal at core more sacral than heart. Definite change in my environment. Am I experiencing X-ray vision seeing inside, outside, around, behind matter? I notice I’m getting very chatty on GOLOV. Makes me feel vulnerable so I get to polish my edges of ego—and practice discernment. Definitely more chatty when happy and having had four hours of sleep!

I’m doing a Past Life Regression session this week for a friend’s sister. People keep asking so I am taking this as a sign to get moving!!

I almost forgot: I kept seeing that round dial that detects radar during Changing the Box meditation this morning. It’s alien technology whatever that means. It’s a communication device / detector. If I need to know it will come through. Does it have to do with X-ray vision?

I saw two infants who needed healing on a Dr Joe Facebook page. I felt energy move through me and was inspired to extend that energy to the infants through my hand. This is definitely new. I have not felt this “inspired healing” with adults. I move when I am inspired from within. And I move when I am inspired from without. Is it not the same spiritual substance? Reminds me of a statement from years ago: I don’t do Shamanism, Shamanism does me. The veil is removed.

As I watched a friend on Zoom recently I saw him as a space traveler and told him so. Why did I tell him? He was ready to hear it is what I am told. My words can get me “in trouble” at times which means I can upset people. So much discernment is required in this realm of matter. Learning goes on and on. Hah!! People management 101!

Another GOLOV meditation. I welcome the Mystical !!

6/17. GOLOV. I immediately shift (bliss is never far away) into that sleep state and see a lens or frame with the lid or line sliding E/W to open. Do reptilian eyes function this way? This round lens reminds me of the Scarab and Lion as it moves away into the future. I am an infant in a womb with a cozy lining around me reminding me of a stuffed animal—like white lamb and cerebrospinal fluid. “Loose the bands of Orion” comes up as “bands” relate. I draw the picture of wooly lamb lining in head/brain. More to be revealed…as always. After meditation I was in a state of “shangri la” (word popped in) much different than feeling nauseous as before. This floating/sleep walking lasted for hours.

In Pineal Gland morning meditation I hear “doors of dimension open to you” and feel greater appreciation for Dr Joe signifying greater capacity within myself.

Marcos Island in Sept popped in and out of meditation: feet in sand, flying all night to arrive in Theta (when does Gamma kick in?), room next door with ocean view. No doubt a celebration of this unfoldment transpiring Now and Now and Now.

I see this Dragon Eye as representing Goddess anatomy and the ascension of S/He Dragon on Earth and beyond.

Tuesday’s GOLOV meditation was profound as I realized the shapeshifting Being was Angel Michael—manifesting in front of me as tall as the ceiling. After the meditation I started to feel nauseous, very nauseous. It felt like I would throw up but didn’t. It was so intense that all I could do was crawl into bed and sleep. The next day, no symptoms. Today, no symptoms. This may sound preposterous but here goes: Did I get radiation sickness? Did this Being’s energetic presence have a physiological effect on my matter? The clue is the word “radar” that I spontaneously wrote during meditation trance. I am recording this in case something like this happens again.

Nice morning meditation learning about brain-heart coherence. To go there! To know it! To stay on that path of guiding Light.

A brother has “stage four pancreatic cancer with one year to live after chemotherapy.” I will tell him the truth about other options. The last time I did so with a gal-pal she rejected the information saying she was in a better space than before the cancer. Do some people get cancer to receive attention and love from family and friends? I have seen/heard people wear their disease like a badge of identity. Which is why I question the reason for all the names given diseases. Is it not all inflammation? Oh, that’s my brain seeing the whole rather than the parts. Names offer specific information. Thanks to my balanced brain response !!

Dream about attraction with a young man. We acknowledge the attraction and I tell him I am much too old for him. He wants to act on the attraction. I consider it in the dream. Waking up in this realm I know the difference between physical and spiritual intimacy. Humans have put the cart before the horse. I had a second dream about this man with the same plot. Is this a parallel reality or life? If so I can impart wisdom from this one. Oh, I remember: he found a girlfriend and we kept our connection/attraction at a different level. There are so many ways to be “in love” beyond the hormonal action based in root chakra. We get to choose intelligently!

I saw how I got caught up in her whirlwind energy and reacted in the energy drain. The next time I watched the whirlwind and disengaged thus diffusing it. I cut it off before it cut me off. My life has suddenly become much more social. A friend asked if I wanted to do healing for a man she had just met. “Why?” Is the question that came up. This “serving” is new territory and the ground is still mushy. I seek solid ground. Keeping my field balanced and protected is in the forefront—there’s that head light!

I am being inspired to do shamanic healing for a friend’s daughter who is depressed. I’ll use sage, drum and rattle. This “knowing” is so different than planning and trying to offer healing service. I keep listening. I welcome this new cycle of embodiment.

Awoke in a clear/open field knowing instantaneously which meditation will begin the day: Global Coherence. Brain connecting and moving with fluidity. Impressed by the musical tones of Joe’s voice with its full range of e-motion. This music fills the sail moving forward.

21 days of “intermittent fasting” is a success even as we (body, mind, heart) made our own rules. 16 hours of fasting is not one of our goals. The many positive effects provide a foundation on which to continue. My diet has a new triangle with the broad base being vegetables rather than carbs. That was and is the goal.

6/15 GOLOV. Kite like—strung way out into space away from body. Lion comes into square frame with circle (reminding me of the dial detector)—he’s twirling his tail—comical. I see myself and Lion walking into the future. What is the significance of seeing behind matter as it moves into future? I am very small next to Lion. He starts to shape shift—into a man. “Lion and the Lamb” (have to look that up) He is wearing gold or is golden (not robes). Gladiator type. A book is given. Instructions. “The Word.” “…and it was good.” Creation story. Adam/Eve/Garden. Write a new book. Empty pages. Seeing from the back—from behind. AH-HA—Angel Michael is Lion now filling up my living room in front of my eyes!! Looks like the picture at Mt Shasta just posted as a memory on Facebook. As in the beginning now in closing: kite like with wind in sail, pushing forward. Makes me happy!

Woke up yesterday and “felt” like meditating. I checked in with my brain-body and the top of my head felt clear with no pressure in response. Clear sailing! Will see how it goes without any “shoulds”. I meditated again today.

Yesterday I consciously touched the arm of the 2 1/2 year old I nanny. It was a nourishing sensation. I am living in this physical realm in new ways! I surmise that my energy field is the cause of this new love for touch. How does “grounding” create this? Get that it has to do with radiation and response. I certainly can’t have that experience with her five-year-old brother. Our bonding is through different ways of touching: eye shine, laughter and words of “please” and “thank you.” We honor one another’s presence (I See You) through touch. Glad I can work with little ones so I can express love in this way. It would be ideal if parents had this quality of substance before birthing children.

I reacted emotionally to a woman on the phone. She is new in my life and we seemed to get long. As I’m getting to know her, however, I hear what’s going on under the surface and much is not resonating. Last night I told her that she sounded “judgmental.” The relationship takes a shift in that I see how she thinks she knows more than others. Is this her Life Coach entitlement? Not sure how much energy I’ll put into this relationship.

I am working on my own words, my speech. I want to breathe purity of Love through the spoken en word. This is a new focus. Words touch people!

6/13. GOLOV Twin infants Ardani and Narek came into field of consciousness. In stillness I was moved to (meaning this was not a mental choice), I was guided to touch baby hands and feet. It’s a “real” sensation flesh to flesh. How is this for a shift in reality? Ardani felt heavier and I sensed a hole at heart. I focused energy there through right hand. I held both of them on my arms radiating into spines. Sensed a connecting tube between them and I reinforced that energetically, charging as in electricity. I encircled both of them in Love.

Earlier in the day and in meditation I found myself rubbing my bare feet together. It was soothing, relaxing and not something this body has done. And at some point in the meditation I was rubbing my hands together. It’s a new sensual sensation. Is this grounding? Am I like those infants learning about my new body? Is this body becoming conscious of itself? During meditation I was “told” to go outside in the rain and walk barefoot (slugs and a pair of yellow American Goldfinch greeted me)! Definitely new sensuality and amazingly I want to exercise more!

At the end of GOLOV I experienced connection at a new level that was filled full like a sail filled with wind (Spirit). As I felt this billowing sail I saw it as that Scarab in a bubble floating away. The circular bubble is a sail with two parts, two wings, moving as One into the future. This brought up waves of delight and I found myself so happy that I had to exit the scene for awhile since others were not in this emotional state. That emotion was quite unexpected—new!!