An Emotional Day

I put post-it notes on her picture with the words “harmony, peace, and love” to duplicate Dr. Emoto’s water blessing crystals. I knew in my heart it was a matter of time. Yesterday was that time. She was happy, attentive toward her baby, and grateful I showed up. She was open and communicative! Yes, I am working to heal my family and—it’s working !!

I then went to my garden to gather squash and flowers. I melted into that space, simply being present with nothing on my schedule except the meditation group.

Somewhere my mood changed—or came to surface—and I was somber. I entered the meditation group late and could not relate to the merriment. I was definitely on a different page. Not sure if I fit in with this group that keeps pinging my phone and giggles before and after meditation. I meditate to connect in the field not to socialize. So now I have to decide whether to stay or go. And if I choose to go do I say why or just exit silently? Sometimes I can stay in a relationship and be uncomfortable until it reaches a boiling point. Maybe I don’t have to get to that point. To end a relationship gracefully, lovingly is a good lesson to learn. I am learning.

[A day later I communicated to the facilitator why I was in my own emotional world and not their playfulness. This response was spontaneous—not something I analyzed. It simply rose up for me to see (the “knowing” of reptilian brain?) and I delivered. Simple, easy and natural! Still unsure if I will return. This, too, will be revealed. ]

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