I woke up at 2:45 am remembering this mage—it was in mind’s eye when I awoke. In a Dr. Joe Dispenza meditation I experienced male and female polarities as two cords rising up through center core and facing each other at the crown chakra. I had forgotten to mention this when I detailed my experience. But this part of the story pole didn’t forget! So it came up to speak in a couple different ways. As a Dragon in flight and on Earth I record what I observe.
I’ve been flying higher than ever before. I have the images and stories in mind, heart and in words. I forgot my mantra of “the higher I fly the lower I dive.” My body didn’t forget.
As a young child I hid in the bathroom hitting the walls with my fists. Why not? Mom hid in the bathroom in deep depression going to the hospital on occasion for shock treatments. Dad was often gone and more often silent. “Fatty Patty” in third grade still carries its self-consciousness. Early on I learned the cycle of ups and downs.
It has been a long time since I hit bottom yet it plays out in smaller ways through binge eating that is self-destructive. My pattern has always been to express rage towards myself—like someone who cuts themselves. Intense! Mom became deaf as child; dad was abused. I carry their pain as I heal their pain. This emotion cuts to the core of potential.
I have new information now. I have new work and new tools. The downs pull on me. The ups pull on me. As a child I rode my bike for miles. I will ride this morning as a new child aware of the down/up motion of moving gears. My body supports me into the unknown and I give thanks even as it feels heavy. When I was paralyzed for three days Light was with me as a small speck at Third Eye. Light gets me through again and again but this time I need to lose a brain pattern. I am anxious because of so many downs. And yet I know how to fly.
My usual light-heartedness is somewhere nearby. I let this healing process move me.
I am walking with a man who is taller than I am. We see a snake. It wants to get close to me and I freak out—a physical snake is different from a mystical one. It wraps around my neck and I consciously work to stay calm. I focus and attune to the snake. I feel it’s presence around my neck moving left to right, then hear it make a sharp sound at, and then in, my right ear. The man unwraps the snake from my neck very carefully because it’s tangled in my hair. He lifts the snake high. I think he’s going to throw it but he gently places it on the ground. The man then strokes my head and neck.
The pituitary gland holds the positive, masculine charge and the pineal holds a negative, feminine charge. When the masculine and feminine energies meet in the brain it is known as the Mystical Marriage. The Mystical Marriage initiates the birth of our multidimensional consciousness…
…The feminine earth energy merges with the masculine pituitary gland and the feminine pineal gland receives the masculine energy from Spirit. When the two awakened chakras’ essences meet in the third ventricle, there is the union and harmony of spirit into matter as the multidimensional forces of spiritual light merge with the matter of our third dimensional brain.
Witnessing rage and violence is heartbreaking. As calm and stable as I was while all hell broke loose now, in the still of night, I feel “gremlins” around my head. This may be a night of no sleep.
This is a very low point in these lives and though I am not emotional, my body has a headache. So, I sage. Light a candle. Call on my Angels. There is nothing I, or we, can do for them. Old patterns stand strong. What will it take to bring change? Time. Something is gonna give one way or another. The image of a dam comes in. This dam has lots of holes and no one is fixing them. I don’t want to watch this dam break yet, break it will. Unless someone sees the Light and takes action.
Mother’s Day of grief. Maybe that is the energy around my head. And maybe it isn’t my energy. Maybe I am tuned in to their turbulence. More sage !!
The strength of Bear medicine is the power of introspection. It lies in the West on the great medicine wheel of life…
Many tribes have called this space of inner-knowing the Dream Lodge, where the death of the illusion of physical reality overlays the expansiveness of eternity… The female receptive energy that for centuries has allowed visionaries, mystics, and shamans to prophesy is contained in this very special Bear energy. In India, the cave symbolizes the cave of Brahma…considered to be the pineal gland that sits in the center of the four lobes of the brain.
If one were to imagine an overview of the head, the top of it would be a circle. The South would be the forehead, the North the back of the skull, the West would be the right brain and the East the left brain.
Bear is in the West, the intuitive side, the right brain. To hibernate, Bear travels to the cave, which is the center of the four lobes where the pineal gland resides. In the cave, Bear seeks answers while he/she is dreaming or hibernating. Bear is then reborn in the spring, like the opening of spring flowers.
For eons, all seekers of the Dreamtime and of visions have walked the path of silence, calming the internal chatter, reaching the place of rites of passage — the channel or pineal gland. From the cave of Bear, you find the pathway to the Dream Lodge and the other levels of imagination or consciousness. In choosing Bear, the power of knowing has invited you to enter the silence and become acquainted with the Dream Lodge, so that your goals may become concrete realities. This is the strength of Bear.
A man who lies to himself, me and others came to mind. He is in deep. The other night he asked how to get out. I told him thread but thread. The problem is he can’t even begin, due to dishonesty. As a result, he keeps asking the same question and going nowhere. Then I thought to send him white Light. The Light didn’t manifest through mind’s-eye-imaging. This time it came through my fingers and thumb! I moved my finger “rays“ around to see how it felt. It was like having long fingernails. I envisioned this man in the midst of my finger web of light, reminding me of Spider Man, the current hero of my grandson, Parker.
This morning after meditation threads of colored light emitted from my fingers. I waved them in the air creating colorful wavy patterns. This manifestation seems to be an overflow and expression of chi.
vital energy that is held to animate the body
circulating life energy that in Chinese philosophy is thought to be inherent in all things
in traditional Chinese medicine the balance of negative and positive forms in the body is believed to be essential for good health
In that space craft again—a rocket with a needle nose reminding me of a sword fish. I ask if it could be round, feminine like an alien craft but it doesn’t change shape. I feel the pressure of the debris field but it’s not as intense as the last flight as if I am observing with more distance. Again the rocket moves through the noisy debris and pressure into an expanded space that is tranquil—buoyant. This open space includes North, East, South and West. I think of brain evolution as moving into Cosmic Consciousness where all the parts are engaged and firing in a new field.