Monthly Archive: April 2020

Another flying dream— no longer solo (just me in space). I was picked up by a space craft !! It flew in low from behind me. We continued flying low to the ground until I noticed. My body inherently knew what to do. S/He shifted weight to the left and upward we ascended !! How cool is that?

My body is entering new territory and I am working to take care of S/He with more exercise, healthy foods and non- toxic people in my field. There is resistance. I am patient yet steady. Ha! Reminds me of Beloved Turtle —reminding me of Beloved Turtle Island. This is my kind of logic—where the dots connect themselves spontaneously. My brain can do this kind of thinking !!

These thoughts are not letting me sleep so I write them here. Why do some people feel “charged” on/near water and others on/near mountains? I used to have the need to go into nature for this charge. Now the green nature of stillness provides this vital life force.

I am watching how to sustain this green charge of inner harmony. It’s challenging. I feel like a misfit around some people and that leads to a heavy “lead” sensation when leaving that person’s presence. I process the feeling and go into a familiar cloud of shame. Some people blame externals for their troubles I have always blamed myself. I learn to change this alchemical, self-defeating pattern.

I seem to be two people living in one body. One is insecure and timid; the other confident and bold. Is this an ego dark body and a dragon energy body that need integrating? The biggest challenge is my brain that doesn’t function well in this reality. (Thanks to the kundalini snap that left me paralyzed for three days.) It’s a constant challenge to connect and ground my brain and mouth.

I know people think that I talk too much about myself. I heard this when someone told me recently “it’s not all about you.” As I write now it’s all about me. I AM the center of my universe, my consciousness. At this place in space I work on integrating my parts. It’s what everyone is doing—whether they know it or not. I’m one who needs—and wants—to talk about it. It’s the most creative, fascinating, enlivening thing to do !!

I love my ego body as angel wings wrap around. I love all ego bodies as angel wings wrap around. Such is the integrating force of Life.

Letting go and turning creates a thrust of propulsion shooting me deeper into space. It is dark here, unknown. I feel my way letting my body guide me. I listen to cues and am rewarded instantly with revelations —spiraling threads of a new frequency. No longer trying to fit somewhere I didn’t belong I notice a lack of previous emotion. What does this say about my new orbit?

Writing this I actually see myself in a craft floating through dark space. I actually feel bouyant, quiet. No, I hear a hum !!

My flight pattern over the years has had many turns. Changes in direction. Does that mean I hit walls with people and groups? Yes, but the walls weren’t/aren’t solid because I flew/fly through them. I am drawn to people because something resonates heart to heart. What is that something? Love? Truth? Life?

With time I see that I don’t fit the beliefs, values, views, and language of certain people in my orbit. Or is it that I no longer fit in their orbit? It’s my mind that gives me initial clues. It’s my body that pushes me over the “finish” line—past their righteousness and judgments—sending waves of chemical information through my whole system until the alarm sounds a deafening cacophony.

What are my emotions during these times of turning? They aren’t “human” in emotional attachment. They are more cold blooded like Dragon. As I close current doors and change direction I recall the countless times that I’ve done this shift in synch with wind currents that guide me. And I remember the many dreams of rolling and turning in free fall through empty space.

My heart speaks now as I write—the Language of the Sacred Feminine coming through. I Love these people that I have been connected to. I wish them well on their journey knowing we will meet again another time, another place. This is warm blooded.

I sat to meditate this early morning. Then my drum called to me—such is the spontaneity of mystical life. As I started drumming “the” green vine came in to take me journeying. I saw this vine recently during a meditation in Corey Goode’s Accelerating Ascension online class. The vine wrapped around S/He Dragon’s neck. We flew letting out the vine and wrapping it around country after country until Earth was wrapped in a web of living green. The vine never depleted, it grew and grew and grew—giving continuously. “Manna” came into consciousness.
(manna definition is “spiritual substance”)

Meditation / drum journeys are healing opportunities for people, planet and cosmos as One field of matter and energy.

Shanti, with Alchemy Academy, (Accelerating Ascension class presented by Corey and Staci Goode) talks about “crowding out.” I find that it works !! Crowd out low vibe food and my body wants more high vibe food which means less dry foods (flour and sugar) and more watery foods (fruits and veggies). This also applies to my feelings, thoughts, words, actions, people I spend time with and how I spend my time. Knowing oneself and healing oneself includes getting to know an internal tone of harmony. Crowding out discord brings more accord.

In morning meditation I took the shape of a receptive triangle 🔺. From the tip of this still space (crown chakra) I received energy from an inverted triangle 🔻. This ♦️ communion of heavenly Light and dense Matter inspires and informs me. This is different than the Tower of Babel noisy dissonance on Earth. This is sacred resonance of New Earth.